Monday, January 27, 2014
I haven't been writing for super duper long and I thought that since I'm currently slacking my life away for now before looking for a job so why not?I just touched down on Friday and I'm already missing BKK so much :( Coming back to Singapore whereby every night I'll feel pretty empty. I'm currently having some sort of issue with my sleeping habits even before BKK. Its as though I don't wanna sleep at all, even when I'm super tired I still stay away to find things to watch/ read.
I guess its because I now that there's nothing to look forward to. But well, I guess I have something to do for the next few days and that's to pack my room. I'm really quite thankful that my mother haven't gone crazy in the meanwhile, I'm quite sure she will. In case I forget, she has gone crazy for the past 2 CNY.
Life is BKK is so gooddddd, everything is so affordable. A milkshake there is like only $2? Normally is like $5 in Singapore????? But poor thing, the Thais are always complaining that their country is no good. Coming back to Singapore is like coming back to the question "When are you going to start work or when are you going to look for a job?". Mind you, I've been looking for jobs. Its just that they haven't got back to me or I'm just not selected, so I'm just waiting ya.
My dad keeps rushing me to get a job so I'll finally stop living off him but the irony is that he doesn't mind paying for me to get a Masters. Sigh... and I'm obviously not going to cause I can't memorize for nuts. Welcome to adulthood.
Besides that, recently I have this feeling that people are always try to take advantage of me like before I left for BKK? So I was so thankful for a getaway. Like they always ask me for things. Especially when I'm driving. I fucking hate it when they ask if I'm driving. Does it matter to you? Like honestly, if I'm driving I'll let you know and I'll ask you if you want a lift. And if I didn't ask, have it occur to you that it might be troublesome? Its not always because people are selfish but mind you, its tiring that I've to be the last to be back home and I've to be careful of your safety since I'm behind the wheels.
Some people just don't get it, they think that driving is free? All they know is how to get a lift, hitch a ride or attempt to gain something out of anything that can get. Don't you get it that I'm paying for petrol and parking myself. If you don't bother chipping in, is it nice to always ask if I'm driving and say things like "oh we can go further if you drive". Erm hi? Go further plus more people in the car means more petrol?
Never mind, what's worse. People asking me to buy things when I'm travelling. Okay, to be honest its fucking troublesome. That's why I never really ask if anybody wanted anything cause its a hassle. And that I've never ask people to get anything for me when they are overseas unless its my family (I'll shamelessly ask them to get whatever I want). But no you don't demand for something and say like eh help me this and that. Who the fuck are you? Okay, even if you got me some presents but it doesn't mean that I owe you anything? Like if I wanna get things, I'll get it for you, you don't ask me like that?
Some may not share the same sentiments as me or maybe even think that I'm actually such a selfish and not kind or blah blah blah. I WAS but no longer. Cause the people around me has been forcing me to become selfish and stingy. I can be nice but that's out of my goodwill. If you ask for it, it's not coming from me and I don't like it..
Okay, I think I drifted alot but yeah its just that BKK was like a getaway from all these disgusting people as well? Despite the lost of my Benson & Hedges and the tuktuk scams, everything was just superb.
Oh dear, guess the next year, I'll be doing the same thing. Going to BKK just before CNY hehe.
ACCEPTANCE 1:34 AM
